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“Shifting Cultivation”

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There’s something happening in me, and what it is, I can’t exactly see.

Something has shifted, and I’m not even sure what that means. Trying to make some sense of it I look up the word shifting. I’ve been through different stages, and on many different journeys in life, but this shifting feels unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. Maybe I just never noticed it to this degree before.

Shifting means changing, especially unpredictably. That verifies the unpredictably change I’m experiencing, but I still don’t get what’s going on. I dig a little deeper into my research on the subject and I come across a diagram called “shifting cultivation.” No, that’s not what I’m looking for. I’m looking for something that has to do with the human psyche. But, the idea of the shifting cultivation keeps pulling me into it’s explanation, and that Aha, moment hits me. The simplicity of nature at work again giving the answer through her example.

250px-Shifting_cultivation_pic (2)Photo from Shifting Cultivation-SignWiki

I am the cultivator of my life. I understand that now. I’ve been feeling a need for change for quite a while. I knew it was time for letting go, but of what I wasn’t sure. I mean being on familiar ground seems like the safest place to stay at least until we know where we’re going. All that time trying to work the same way I’d always done wasn’t producing anything worth giving away. So, the shifting happened abruptly, and left me with a feeling of being lost. Now that I can see, what’s happening to me, a whole new horizon of possibilities comes into view. It takes time to work new grounds taking a small section at a time. If you’d like to follow along with me I’ll share what my cultivating grows.

“Let The Words Go”

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Monkey

I read an ancient Chinese story the other day that sounded a lot like the kind of parables Jesus used to teach his lessons.

If you want to trap a monkey, hollow out a cocoanut just big enough for its open hand to reach inside. Place rice in the carved-out fruit, and leave it in the path of the monkey. Sooner or later, a hungry monkey will smell the rice and reach its hand in.  But once fisting the rice, its hand will no longer fit back out through the opening. The monkeys that get caught are those who won’t let go of the rice, and as long as the monkey maintains its grip on the rice, it becomes a prisoner of its own making. The trap works because the money’s hunger is the master of its reach.

I’ve been that monkey in many different situations throughout my life. With my hand fisted in the cocoanut I can’t for the life of me figure out why I could reach in, but can’t pull it back out. So, I too have become a prisoner of my own making because I can’t see that what I want the most is holding me back and until I let it go, I won’t be able to see the actual freedom it creates for me.

I keep thinking it has something to do with the story of I’ve been trying to write since I was a teen. And I do feel as if I’m chained to it in a way. No matter how many times I try to let it go the hunger to finish it comes back. So, as I’m thinking of this lesson of the monkey I can’t get the thought out of my mind that maybe it’s trying to tell me something about letting go of this want and desire. Then the clarity comes to me. What lies within my fist are the words of my story and as long as I hold onto them I’ll remain a prisoner of what I actually believe will never be accomplished.

Now I could have never come up with that kind of answer without sieving my thoughts through the spirit of God.

“Pleasing Can Become Dis-easing”

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I could almost laugh hysterical out loud if I didn’t cry first as I realize today how much my physical symptoms resemble my emotional feeling. It’s all in my head. Up into my sinuses as high it can go until reaching my brain where my thoughts are created. I feel like my whole head is constipated, and I wonder, did I create all this myself? It seems to be compacted by doing things I don’t really want to do. What can I say, I’m a people pleaser. I always have been, and always will be. But as I was talking to one of my girls about it, she admitting being a people pleaser too, but for the right reason. Because she enjoys doing things that makes people feel good. I thought, yes, me too! However, with any quality comes two ways of using it. It can be productive or destructive. So we have to use it just as mindfully as we do anything else. If we don’t than every time we go against ourself it adds up and before we know it we become all stuffed up, infected and irritated.

So I ask myself, “what is the solution?”

My inner spirit says, “love yourself as God loves you, and all that love will come shining through .”