“It matters not how straight the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.”
-William Ernest Henley, “Invictus”
And God is the compass that points the way.
It’s up to me
which way I sail,
Which way I go
Is where I’ll be.
Sometimes I feel
Alone at sea.
Inside of me.
I look for an answer
A narrow telescope.
There is nothing in sight
But a seagull
Why do I forget
Its easy to see.
It can’t get lost,
For its inside of me.
I am after all
Of my soul,
But it’s the compass
That shows me
Way to go.
To be mindful one must quiet the mind long enough to see what’s in front of them. I was told recently that I think too much. I’ve been told that before. So, in the process of trying not to think too much I turn to my thoughts for ideas on how to not think so much. Ha-ha! I know, right about now you’re probable wondering what the heck has Connie’s been smoking. It’s true! I do think a lot, but it’s who I am and to be honest I “think” it’s the one thing I like most about myself. I have a curious mind, and I think deeply about things if you haven’t guessed that already. But the mind needs to be tamed, same as everything else in our life. We have to find a balance. In order for me to do that I first have to find a way to quiet all the chatter going on inside my head. Meditation doesn’t come easy for one who thinks too much, but it’s the very thing I need to clear the pathway of my many thoughts. So, I’m sitting on my deck enjoying this bright sunny day and my eyes are drawn to the blue skies. White puffy clouds drift slowly, reminding me of the gentle peaceful flow of life I long to be in. I watch, focusing my attention only on the movement of the clouds letting my thoughts drift past them as they come. As I watch the clouds it’s as if I begin to move right along with them only in the movement there is stillness. Between the moments of stillness comes change as the cloud becomes a dolphin that turns into a shark. Then a dragon spewing fire from its mouth, that becomes an elephant, and an angel with a trumpet. As the cloud begins to disperse it looks like a scruffy dog, and I chuckle at the words to a song that comes to mind, “Lucy in the sky with diamonds,” it’s my Lucy dog.
Being the deep thinker I am I can’t help but wonder what the significance of these characters might mean. So, for the fun of it I look up the symbolisms for each. There are all kinds of meanings and explanations for just about anything you picture or envision. Who knew? I didn’t! So, I wrote down what resonated with me. I was amazed at how it all came together. Pretty cool!
Dolphin-is an emblem of living our true purpose in the creative since, and using it to contribute to the better good of all. The Dolphin reminds us to enjoy the moment for this moment will never pass this way again, every moment is precious. (Wow!)
Shark-when a shark enters your life it portends a time of fearlessly facing those things or people who hold you back. (Hum!)
Fire dragon-teaches you to roar finding your voice, being heard and truly understood. (Yes!)
Elephant– when an elephant comes to you the message is typically one of connectedness. (For me it reaffirms the connectedness of my oneness with God.)
Angel-Seeing angels in the clouds indicates that spiritual insights and guidance are in the offing. Pay extra attention to your intuition and insights. (Great confirmation)
Dog-a dog in the clouds suggests the company of loyal friends and faithful companions. (Which I love!)
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Sometimes the truth can be so twisted and distorted that the lie becomes our truth, and the truth becomes the lie. But we always have that inner voice knocking on the door to our heart. It’s the one go to we have, that we can rely on to untangle the ugliness in our life.
Maybe it’s time we find a way to reconnect with our intuitive gift. It’s that voice that keeps piercing our heart trying to get our attention. It whispers in our ears saying, “there’s something happening here,”but as long as we push away what it’s trying to say, it an’t ever gonna be exactly clear. That’s when denial comes into play and we begin to rationalize what we know deep down inside is wrong. In the end are we going to be able to live with what we’ve allowed to happened. We are not in this alone. Everything we think, do or say affects the greater good or bad of the whole. When we ask ourselves what can I do? How will we know if we don’t listen to our intuition that’s trying to direct our way.
The way to get back to our saving grace is to reopen this God given gift. If we start with ourselves each guided step will build upon the other, and the rational mind will once again be put back in its proper place, serving us rather than undermining our own inner truth. One person at a time we have the ability to be the change we want to see. It begins with a mindful attitude that helps us to be aware of what we’re paying attention to and what we are basing our truth on. We should never sale ourselves short of our giving gifts. They are there to guide us in the right direction.
It can be difficult to form a concrete understanding when we’re trying to make an informed decision. There is often as many good reasons as there are bad reasons on a subject. So how do I decide which way to go?
I think that’s where our intuition comes into play. It’s that gut feeling that will tell us which way feels right. It will also twist us into knots when we choose what goes against us. Our intuition holds a special place in which our beliefs and values lie. It’s representative of our true-selves.
Now some would say you don’t need all this, just turn to God and He’ll give you the answers. I won’t argue with that. I just like knowing that the person God created me to be has the ability to use the gifts He’s blessed me with. Because He created me after all. Gave me a brain to use. The freedom of choices, along with many tools like intuition, emotions and my senses to make the best informed decision. Then He simple responds to me by asking, “what does your gut tell you? That my dear friends is where our individual unique personifies are able to exercise what only we ourselves were created to do.
There is a profound Zen proverb that says, “The seed never sees the flower.
The seeds we plant along our life’s journey is the same way. We are all like Johnny Appleseed dropping ours seeds as we go. He would have never been able to plant so many if he kept going back to see the results of his endeavors. Trusting in the process of the good we plant takes humility. Which means getting our ego out of the way. It is only then that our mind, body and spirit is able to bring our true-self out to do the work of our passions. Through this bond of Oneness, we have all the assurance we need that whatever we sow along the way will produce beautiful flowers. The seed never sees what it produces, it just knows what it’s supposed to do, as do we intuitively.