Today is International day of peace
I should change the name of my blog to “Flower Girl,” because I do love spreading peace. The thing is I want to be taken serious when I talk about it, and the flower girl tends to be looked at…as having no-clue. My brother told me not long ago that I always reminded him of Janis Joplin. I have no idea where he got that impression except I had a tougher edge to me when I was a teen. I needed that in order to survive the world I was thrust into. Maybe he was talking more about the way she looked, I don’t know. What I do know is that when caught between our own right and wrongs sometimes letting go of all the hurt and anger they cause us…opens up a space for peace to come in.
I was with a group of ladies the other day taking a yoga class. At the end, I stayed for a group meditation. In the space of time between yoga and meditation the heaviness of the world events was the subject of talk. One of the ladies asked if we could focus on gratitude. I was thinking to myself how much more attention we put on the things that go wrong rather than the many more things that are still right in our life. The beautiful thing about counting our blessings is that we always find more to be grateful for than all the bad things we place our focus on. Letting go allows the peace to come in and when the peace comes in it gives us a healthier outlook on what we can do to help and make the world a better place. We could all aspire to be a little more like St. Francis who not only said, “Let peace begin with me,” but lived it as an example to all of us.
May you have a peace filled day!
As I begin my day I light my spiced pumpkin candle. The light representing the presence of God. The smell awakening my senses and I give thanks for another day to experience what life has to teach and offer me. Then I open my little marble book that holds the names of people who are in need of prayer. I don’t ask God for what he already knows their needs to be. I simple see them as receiving whatever it is that God has to offer them on this day. Then I center myself through meditation and as I concentrate on my breath I can’t help feeling blessed to be alive yet one more day. One breath at a time and nothing else matters except the moment I find myself in. All else stems from this moment of thanks and praise. I breath in wellness and out happiness in and out filling myself with all that is good and right in the world. Remembering that with all that can go wrong there is so much more good to draw from.
May your day be blessed and filled with all your hearts desire.
As I sit with my new journal in hand I pause to look back over a trying 2016 for me, my family, friends, our country, and the world. But instead of carrying the negative, sorrow and pain with me into 2017, I choose to let it go, and as the cover of my journal reads I plan to live the story I want to tell.
Standing before a brand new path I want only to take what I’ve learned and gained from my experience. The only way I know to get beyond the pain and sorry is to look for the good that remains. As always when I sit down to list all that I have to be grateful for, it never fails to show me that there is so much more good in my life than not.
I’m ready and packed for the journey with my positive optimistic bags full. I intend to make the best of each day I’m blessed with, and to continue to learn and grow from the days that bring me difficult paths to climb over.
I hope that your journey this New Year will be blessed, and that you are able to live the storys you want to tell as well.
Happy New Year!
December 24, 2015
A Note from Ollie
“I’m ready for this party to get started!”
“The Grandkids are coming that means I’ll be cleaning up the floor tonight! Can’t wait!”
This popped up on my Facebook timeline this morning, and I lost it. There’s no Ollie this year here, they’ll be no grandkids here for our annuel Christmas Eve celebration because of my condition. I do have a lot to be gratful for though. My family and friends who have done so much in these past few weeks to make things easier for me. And we are still having our celebration at Shannon’s this year as our kids pitch in together to carry on our family traditon. Letting others do things for me is not easy, but has been a good lesson in humility. In turn I’ve been blessed with much grace. I guess the lesson for me is to remember with change comes much pain, and yet beneath it lies the grace that gets us through it.
Merry Christmas and may we all be blessed with a health happy New Year!
Sleeping under the stars
“We’ve never experienced this very moment before, and the next moment will not be the same as the one we are in now.” -Pena Chodron
I’ve been sleeping propped up on the couch for the past few nights since my surgery. Our couch sits up against the big bay window in our living room. As I can only lay on my back to sleep right now it gets a little uncomfortable through the night. At some point I opened my eyes to get resituated, but I couldn’t move because of what I saw. It was as if I was sleeping outside under the stars. The sky was clear, the moon was almost full, and the stars were shining extra bright, at least they looked that way to me. I would have never been able to see this view from inside my house if I hadn’t been laying at the angle I was. It’s funny how one little open door of awareness can open us up to all the things around us we have blocked out. Suddenly I was aware of the cool fresh air coming in the corner windows, and the sounds of the summer night as if in full concert mode. Between the sight, sound and fresh clean air I felt like I’d been given a glimpse of heaven. It was a captured moment in time in which all else was forgotten. There was no pain or discomfort and after a while I fell back to sleep forgetting why I woke up in the first place. Every mindful moment like this seems to build on top of the other for me. Through this whole ordeal I’ve been able to find a way to see something better than my condition, and it’s had an amazing effect on my healing so far. I don’t question anymore where it come from. I know it comes from the grace of God, and all it takes is a moment of awareness to tap into.
I learned a simple beautiful prayer today by Jean Houston that goes like this:
“God let me be a blessing to someone today.”
As I went about this beautiful day, I thought about all the different ways we can do this. It can be as big or as little as the opportunity presents itself to us. I don’t think we have to go out of our way to find things to do. We simply need to be mindful of the opportunities. There’s many ways to be a blessing. Like one friend shared early this morning a beautiful picture of a flower on Facebook with two simple words to contemplate on, “peace and quiet.” It was a seine start to my morning. Someone else got a call very early to help jump a friends car. Without hesitation, fussing or irritation he went, and not only blessed the person, but himself as well for the good feeling it gave him. Another event I witnessed was at the grocery store where someone found several five dollar bills left behind. Instead of pocketing it the person turned the money in to the cashier. Within a matter of seconds the person who lost the money came back to retrieve it. She couldn’t say thank you enough to the person who found it.
As I write this with the inspiration God places in my heart. I realize how others have blessed me today. In return my prayer is answered as it gives me the opportunity to reach out and bless others with my words. It is beautiful when you think about it. God touches one, then that one touches another, and in our blessings we become extensions of God without even realizing the effect it creates.
One of the most amazing things
that can happen is finding someone
who sees everything you are,
and won’t let you be anything less.
They see the potential in you.
They see endless possibilities.
And through their eyes,
you start to see yourself the same way.
As someone who can make a difference in this world.
If you’re lucky enough to find this person,
never let them go.
Sometimes someone like this comes along in your life, and it feels uncomfortable at first. Especially if you have always had a low self esteem and feel unworthy of any kindness. I remember when Tom first came into my life, he was so kind, attentive and caring. I was’t use to having anyone treat me so good, and it felt weird and uncomfortable. I wanted him to go away. I went to visit a friend, and she was the one who pointed out to me that I may have made the biggest mistake of my life. “Sounds like he’s the best things that’s every happen to you,” she said. I was afraid I’d lost him forever. But when the bus pulled into the terminal there he was waiting for me. I jumped into his arms and never let him go again.
I thank my good friend Mary Faith too, who knew me well enough to set me back in the right direction.
Today is a good day all things considered. I owe it to God who is always whispering in my ear the things I need to hear. I am grateful to God of course, but also to myself for turning down the volume on my troubled chatter long enough to hear Him. I’m also grateful for my friends, family and fellow bloggers who are always inspiring me in one way or the other. There is gratitude all around us if we take the time to look beyond the negative. I see more things to be grateful for then that which tends to pull me down. It’s truly the best medicine, and it’s not even something I have to swallow it’s already inside me. All I have to do is tap into it.
Every new day gives us a chance to start anew. How we perceive it will depend on the choices we make. Whatever we choose increase in our life whether we choose to wake up and carry the negative of yesterday with us or try to find a ray of hope in our day. It’s up to us, we always have the chance to choose this or that.
Sometimes it helps to have a sense of direction. That’s why I love this quote. It’s simple and to the point.