“Resistance”

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Resistance- the refusal to accept or comply with something. There are many definitions of the word resistance. What I’m talking about today is the resistance we experience when we know we need to do a certain thing, but we keep finding excuses not to do it. The harder we have to work at resisting something, is usually an indication of how important the very thing is that we’re resisting.

Why do I resist what I know is the best thing for me to do?
• Sometimes it’s scary to take a step toward the unknown.
• Change means I have to get out of my comfort zone too. Maybe I’ll do it tomorrow.
• What if I fail?
• What if I’m listening to the wrong voice inside, and I’m not really supposed to do it?

When I’m in this place of resistance, I am not myself. I get miserable, depressed, agitated and unable to express myself. It’s as if I’ve been cut in half like a worm still able to function but not with all my working parts. It’s hard to find the clarity I need to put myself back together. My ego is happy in this state of mind because it’s in charge leading the way. To where? I doesn’t even know or care, but in the state of resistance, confusion is created where clarity can’t be found. It takes a lot of effort to get to that place of mindfulness where I am able to put myself back together. When the real me stands up, I know I am back home where I belong with my mind, body and soul working together as one.

It is than that I am always in ah as to how I could have falling into such a place of discontent. Why would I want to be anywhere else but in this place of clarity and understanding. But then I realize each time I become lost, it is another opportunity to find my way back, and as I do, I learn so many new lessons along the way that create a deeper understanding. Resistance is just another way of teaching me the difference between who I really am, and who I am not.

About connieszone

I've come to know myself as a unique individual expression of God. I love that there is only one me in all the world. I'm still learning, growing and experiencing all the wonders that this life has to teach me. I live, move, and breath in this shell of a body God has given me, and together we travel. He see's, hears, taste, smells and touches all that I experience through the individual personality that I am. I believe He exist in each one of us for the same purpose. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother, grandmother and friend to many. I love to write and express the many thoughts that swim around in my head. I love to read. I'm a creative crafty kind of person. I love being in my garden. I've been working on my families genecology for 25 years. I think that about sums me up for now.

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