“My Battle Within”

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I have this rebellious streak in me, and when it is challenged, my ego is in its glory. Why, because it has my full attention and nothing else can enter in. It’s sucks me away from my soul, and I feel splintered from my own truth. I am captured by it like a bug in a spider web. I can go for days letting my rebellion turn into a fighting match. It usually doesn’t occur with actual people because I don’t like conflict. The battle goes on in my head about what I want to say, but don’t. I know that makes me passive, and maybe to some its not the way they would do things, but it keeps me from doing something I might regret. It gives me the time I need to find my way back to my soul. It’s only in this place that I can make the right choice about the things I am passionate about. That is after all where the rebellion comes from those things that we are passionate about. It is only when they are challenged that we can dig deeper into their meaning for us. Its one thing to believe in what you are doing and what it stands for. Its another thing to let that rebellious streak turn you in the opposite direction. So I fight the fight like we all do. In the end I have to ask myself what is the intention in my action.

 Is it for the greater good of all or is it just to feed my ego. Hum!!!
 And there I have my answer!

About connieszone

I've come to know myself as a unique individual expression of God. I love that there is only one me in all the world. I'm still learning, growing and experiencing all the wonders that this life has to teach me. I live, move, and breath in this shell of a body God has given me, and together we travel. He see's, hears, taste, smells and touches all that I experience through the individual personality that I am. I believe He exist in each one of us for the same purpose. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother, grandmother and friend to many. I love to write and express the many thoughts that swim around in my head. I love to read. I'm a creative crafty kind of person. I love being in my garden. I've been working on my families genecology for 25 years. I think that about sums me up for now.

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