Today I feel the desperation of my need to lose weight. This has been an ongoing battle for probable 20 years. Off and on I go with diets. I start by building up this great attitude telling myself this time it’s going to be different. “You can do this, yes you can!” I visualize how I want to be. Not skinny or unrealistically thin. I see myself at a healthy weight feeling good about how I look, and feel energetically. I gather the food, plan the meals and after one week or two something comes along to sabotage my efforts. But you know what? That’s just an excuse. Blaming something outside myself for what I let happen. So today as I randomly do sometimes, I pull a book off my bookcase. This one is one of my longtime favorites called, “As a Man Thinketh,” by James Allen. It opens to a page easily, and when that happens I usually see it as a sign of something I’m meant to read.
“Effect of Circumstances” page 19.
“Here is a rich man who is the victim of a painful and persistent disease as the result of gluttony. He is willing to give large sums of money to get rid of it, but he will not sacrifice his gluttonous desires. He wants to gratify his taste for rich and unnatural viands and have his health as well. Such a man is totally unfit to have health, because he has not yet learned the first principles of a healthy life.”
Change means- to become different. I know everything I need to do, but I’d rather pay someone else to do it for me then do what I need to change myself. Change means giving up, and giving up is really hard to do. You can’t change like the rich man in the story until you recognize what the thing that is standing in your way is. The bottom line is I want to be healthy, but I have to want it enough to be willing to make the changes I need to. I can have all the encouragement I can get, all the prayer you can give me, but I’m the only one who can make it happen.