In the mist of feeling miserable, you have to search harder to find the good things in your life.
I feel like my faith, wisdom and passion are being tested. I talk a lot about living in the moment, finding the good beneath the muck, remembering to be grateful for all that we have, even in the mist of our own pain. So here I am still fighting this 3 month long sinus infection which includes a bad cough, and fatigue. I’m about to begin my 4th round of of antibiotics. I’m not writing this for your pity. I simple want to make a point using myself as an example.
I had to stop myself from saying I’m a mess because I believe when we clam thoughts like that we keep ourselves bound by it. So I say to myself I’m not a mess, I’m Connie. When I turned to God asking, what can I do. He answers, “practice what you preach.”
So I begin with gratitude, because it always points toward the goodness in my life. The first thing I’m thankful for is that I enjoy writing. It’s something I can do that doesn’t take a lot of physical energy. Even though my mind is a bit cloudy, I know I’m doing what I’m suppose to because God shines through the clouds. Speaking of clouds, I’m grateful for the sunshine and blue sky’s today as I sit in its healing warmth, absorbing some much needed energy while I write this. I am thankful for another day of life, because in spite of my condition I can still find a way to give. My greatest thankfulness is for my hubby Tom, and my family. They have always been my gift, and answer to prayer.
I’ve learned from the many things I’ve gone through in my life. However, it seems there’s always a new scenario on a totally different level for us to work through. The thing that I try to remind myself is that there’s nothing you can do about what you can’t change, but there is always something to do with the things you can.